Conference hydra::dejavu

    Beth -- This is truly a conundrum - however, perhaps a different
    perspective might be worthwhile.
    
    A bit of Spiritual Warrior tactics might be in order, and though I
    would like to think of myself as "enlightened", or "strong" enough,
    I don't know if I am. What I'm going to recommend will be the toughest 
    test of your beliefs and abilities - but it may work.
    
    You may want to refrain from struggling - refrain from beating your
    wings.  Don't fight any more.  If you "capitulate", your foe wins.  
    But this is indeed a classic phyrric victory.  What does (s)he win?
    
    You are enabling your foe to stockpile a karmic debt of incredible 
    proportions - by not doing anything.  By non-confrontation, by turning
    aside you will strengthen yourself - and cause the downfall of your
    foe in the next time around.
    

Re: .1

Thanks.  That kind of coincides with some information from a reading I did for
myself last night:  drop my defenses, become wide open.  And you're right:
it will be a tough, perhaps the toughest, thing to do.  Many of the defenses
were built up without my conscious knowledge, so even I don't know their full
extent.  Oooh, I think the panic (at the thought of defenselessness) is starting 
to rise already ;-)

This is kind of odd though.  I caught some of the _On Homecoming_ shows on a
local PBS station the other weekend, where Bradley talks about visualizing the
child within (that is you), and visualizing a protector (which is also you) for
the child.  The child has no need of defenses, for the protector defends.  So,
in a way, my defenses become "controlled" by one outside of me.  It is kind of
a shift of focus for me, because several years ago, *I* was the protector, asked
to murder the child at my feet (I didn't, but chose to defend instead).  I
realized even then that the child was me.  So, now it is time to "be" the child
rather than the protector.

Am I making sense?

Beth

    Hmmmm.  Don't know if the best course of action is to "become wide
    open".... Drop your defenses - ok.  But I would still use common
    sense and protect myself.  I think there's a difference between not
    continuing the struggle and actively inviting destruction.  Perhaps
    it is that fine line that you might want to meditate on.
    
    Don't know what kind of "reading" you did for yourself last night, but
    the runes might be able to guide you on appropriate action that a Spiritual
    Warrior would take in this instance.
    
    This is a particularly difficult path that you are on.  Not many would
    be presented with something this arduous. Being presented with this is 
    an indication of the strength of your power and abilities. 
    
    Use them wisely.
    

Re: .3

Thanks for the support.  I do understand what you mean about defenses though.


I read Tarot cards.  I have done runic stones, but I'm not as comfortable/
knowledgable with them yet.  I still have to look up the symbols.  Cards are
almost too instantaneous, and I can use them to refine the information given
(and sometimes they refuse to tell me anything about the topic in question :-).


Ever get the feeling you could really call down lightning?  I just lack a proper
target ;-)  But that's why I LOVE storms.  Almost all are energizing, 
revitalizing.

Thanks again.

Beth

    re: .0
    
    Beth,
    
    Have you considered getting in touch with Sylvia Brown, the psychic
    mentioned in note 1640.0?
    
    Sylvia made a live appearance on a Boston TV show earlier this year.
    She was very impressive.  Her readings, which she's able to give over
    the telephone, are expensive - I think she said the cost was about
    $200.  When an audience member asked how long such a reading lasted,
    she replied, "As long as it takes."
    
    She had a paperback (written with Antoinette May) published in 1991
    and entitled, "Adventures Of A Psychic."
    
    Virginia

    re: .5 (Virginia)
    
        Sylvia Brown lives here in the South Bay (San Jose area of
    California.)  She's been around for quite a while (publically.)
    I've seen her on tv and heard about her lots.  She has a great
    personality and is fun and entertaining; HOWEVER, if it were my
    $200, there are sources of information far more accurate and
    informative than Sylvia Brown.
        If it's psychic information that you want (as opposed to help
    with some emotional issue, say...) and the phone doesn't bother you
    (it shouldn't) then try Michael (there is an earlier note about him--
    2 years ago) at 415-753-3393 (channeled by Fred Hyslop [pronounced
    "Hi-slip"]) or Tora at 818-996-2020 (channeled by Shaun Randall.)
    
    Frederick
    

Frederick,

Do you know their rates?

Thanks.

And thanks to others (I've gotten some response offline as well).

Beth

    re: .7 (Beth)
    
         Michael was getting $50 for the first 45 minutes and $1/min
    thereafter.  I think I once knew what Tora got, but I've since 
    forgotten.  These rates have a way of changing, anyway, but that
    should be a ball-park figure.
         I talked with Michael for almost 90 minutes and it was more
    than enough.  The last 15 minutes or so I was really dragging because
    of the effort to assimilate all that he had been saying to me.
    So, if the experience with Sylvia is similar, Sylvia would be 
    twice as expensive.
    
    Frederick