|  |     Frederick,
    I too am interested in the 'levels of awareness'.
    Not to get side tracked but I'm also beginning to discover the same 
    thing your girlfriend has:
>>          But, as she related to me, what she learned from the 
    situation is that the reality she created was not one in which
    she was responsible for the act (of suicide) but that it was
    the way she chose in this lifetime to generate emotions and
    how to deal with them.  In other words, she was able to 
    encounter (or confront) very severe emotions by creating her
    reality in the manner she did.  Clearly, HOW she dealt with
    the emotions is the "lesson" for her. <<
I've always been one to be 'ruled by my emotions' and I'm finally
'learning' that I created some 'tough life situations' for that very 
reason - to see how I would deal with the emotions they elicited.
Now that I'm more 'aware' of this, I can consciously choose how I will 
handle my emotions not just react to them.  This 'awareness' enables
me to be more loving to myself and others. 
   
Getting there,
Ro
    
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|  |     Re:  requests
    
          Okay, Lazaris fans, Frederick, your cosmic deejay is here
    cueing up the old LP to play some of your favorites...
                          :-)
          I listened to this tape and had to replay it over and over
    to get what I did.  The mechanical quality is poor and Lazaris'
    accent seems to be thicker than it is these day (maybe not.)
    Anyway, the recording is called "The Subjectivity of Self" and
    took place in a home (of an eventual staff person) in front of
    perhaps thirty people. 
          He starts out talking about a few things and then gets into
    Descartes' "I think, therefore I am" which he says is unfortunate.
    If anything, and this is not true either, it would be "I am, therefore
    I think."  From there he goes into comparing our ideas of awareness
    to the development of the earth.
    1.  Relates the seeing of gaseous formation of the Earth to MECHANICAL
        awareness.
    2.  Then it rains a lot and we can see the moon, which he relates
        to SENSUAL awareness.  Our tongues, and other examples I couldn't
        fully grasp.  
    3.  As the Earth condenses and cools, we notice stars.  These
        correspond to becoming aware of our EMOTIONS.
    4.  Then we discover planets within the stars.  This is INTELLECTUAL
        awareness (the sorting out of mechanical, sensual and emotional
        awarenesses.)  This is total condensation or determinism.
    5.  The expansion into a new level grows out of step 4 into seeing
        the galaxy, seeing farther than before.  Seeing the Milky Way.
        This is a concept greater than intellectual but it is still
        looking. (If he named it, I missed it.)
    6.  Then we see other galaxies.  This is a universal, holistic
        awareness.  
    7.  By concentrating and stretching, we WILL discover other universes.
        This correlates to cosmic consciousness.
    
        The more we condense into ourself, the farther we see, ying-yang.
    As we condense, as we center, our awareness expands. As we reduce
    the frequencies, our power increases.  This he called the basis
    of creativity.
        As we center within, so we expand consciousness.  As we
    [sorry, I listened several times but couldn't understand the word]
    "befriend" energy, our consciousness shrinks.  {I don't think
    "befriend" is the word he used.} 
        This ties into Ying-Yang consciousness.  As you contract into
     determinism, you expand awareness into the FUTURE. The FUTURE
    determines the present because state of total freedom (step 1)
    of the freedom of determination (free will) chooses to move toward
    determinism.  Free will activates and moves towards its future.
    The future always determines the present...the past only influences
    the present.  
         Then he went on to say that the former isn't true, since there
    is no time.  He said WE create the past, present and future.  They
    ARE and we match them up by consciousness.
          He further stated that MOTION doesn't happen...our cartoonists
    know this.  There are billions of realities in each instant.
    There is condensation or there is expansion.  WHY?  Because we always
    have.  We made 7 decisions in order to be physical.
    One is to play the games.  To conform to time because it makes it
    easier to function.
    Reality is manifested thought.  EVERY thought is manifested...on
    some level.
    
    We have given up our free will on the past---the future [in regards
    to free will] we *barely* hold onto...which is why it is less
    determined.  It's scary to lose free will (and it should be.)
    This is why predictions are so scary.
    
    I listened to about 40 minutes of tape to do this.  I do not wish
    to go into it further (takes too much time...and most of this stuff
    is available either in note 358 or on tapes or in books.)  So, that's
    it.  So my note in .1 was not too close...oh well! (martyr, martyr!)
    
    Frederick
    
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|  |      re: .2
     
          As I re-read it, I noticed that I should have clarified
    why Lazaris said that predictions can be scary.  He had told of
    a woman to whom he had spoken that he had told that she would be
    receiving two different phone calls and he told her the
    precise time that the phone calls would occur (and what their
    purpose was, etc.)  Well, apparently they occured exactly as
    he had told her they would.  This scared her sufficiently to
    not want to talk to Lazaris (again or something like that.)
    So, it's not just negative predictions that can scare us.
    
    ...just to clarify a point.
    
    re: .3
      
          ?
    
    
    Frederick
    
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