|  |     I understand your note in a way, but I don't think you have a problem
    if all you ate were vegetables.  My out of control eats are definitely
    not vegetables.  I thought you did very well by limiting it to only
    those, sometimes you just have those cycles of wanting more than you
    need.  Some people find if they do exactly what you do, at least they
    can control it.  AT least that's what they tell me in Weight Watchers.
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|  |     It's obviously painful for you that your desire to eat overruled
    your decision not to overeat.  I hear how much that is hurting you.
    
    I don't know what your binge foods are, but I think you deserve
    some credit for stopping where you did and not saying, "Oh well,
    I screwed up, let's hit the bakery and the ice cream place and...".
                                           
    But today is a new day.  Today is really all you ever have.  Today
    (not tomorrow!!) you can follow your food plan, even though you
    may be a little uncomfortable from overeating.  You cannot go back
    and change yesterday...so make today a day where you are at peace
    with what you eat.
    Holly                                       
    
    
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|  | The way I usually deal with the urge to eat is to figure out what it
is I REALLY want and to eat that one thing.  If I don't do that, I
find I eat all around it and FINALLY eat what ever it was I wanted
in the first place.  I have to be pretty certain that I'm in fairly
good control of things else I'll eat far too much of "it", but this
usually works for me.
IMHO, you handled it BEAUTIFULLY!  But, we all beat ourselves up now and then.
Liz
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|  | 
	I've been learning some lessons about out-of-control eating lately.
	I was feeling like I was on the edge of control for months, and
	finally stopped fighting it.  For the past 2 weeks, I've been 
	eating whatever I felt like; this has included a lot of ice cream, 
	a bunch of fudge, and unmeasured portions of all sorts of things.
	The process that has accompanied this has been the realization that
	the world hasn't ended, and while I've put a couple of pounds back 
	on, I'm still a lot better off than I was even 4 months ago (not to 
	mentin a year or two ago).  In the last year and a half, even when 
	I was off program, I was still avoiding sugar like the plague.  I
	finally reached the point where I couldn't stand that any more; by
	facing it now, I'm analyzing what I'm feeling deprived of, and I'm
	about ready to go back on program.
	It sounds like your feelings of deprivation were portion related,
	rather than being tied to specific foods.  What you craved was to
	eat until you couldn't eat any more, something which you probably
	haven't done in quite a while.  That's not such a horrible thing
	to do every once in a while; if it satisfies a need, continued 
	deprivation might have made things much worse in the long run. 
	You can decide one day to eat a lot of something without having 
	it mean that you're out of control.  The decision to eat that food 
	was yours; the decision to stop when you did was also yours.  The
	frustration of feeling deprived got to you; fine.  Accept that as
	a reasonable way to respond to stress that built up over time, be
	glad that you were able to handle it as well as you did, that you
	pulled out of it quickly, and that your ability to handle the
	temptations has improved.
	Take care,
	Beverly
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|  |     Thanks all for the responses.  I'm doing much better and I was able
    to lose some weight this week.  I was not feeling deprived - it
    was purely emotional.  Little things had been building up over several
    days and I had been fighting the urge but gave in Monday.  I had
    been invited to a dinner buffet Monday and was smart to pass and
    go home where I knew the harm would be minimal.
    It was not WHAT I ate that was causing the problem, but the heading
    to the refrigerator to handle some emotional stress.  It scared
    me because this is the one thing I must overcome if I am to succeed
    at getting/keeping my weight off.  I'm doing much better now but
    I really did hate that loss of control.
    
    At least after a pound of zucchini, no matter what the motivation
    for eating, food loses it's appeal :-).
    
    Thanks again for the support
    
    Denise
    
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